For me I think that this exercise was a particularly useful
one as I feel that as I am playing a character far from myself, a middle-aged,
upper-class, man, I could have been tempted to create a grotesque,
stereotypical, caricature, however as the exercise was so naturalistic and
focused on the everyday I felt that I was able to just be my character rather
than having to create a false persona for him. Consequently I was able to make
really interesting discoveries about my character and my relationships with
other characters and the surroundings which I can transfer into my performance
and character development.
I found that along side my characters status was a grand
sense of pride within themselves. This resulted in a lot of time spent on my
appearance and care taken how I treat myself, especially comparative to the
convicts. I think that the more disgusting and vile the convicts get the more pristine
my character feels he needs to counterbalance the dirt. I also feel that it
could verge on the side of obsession and the more contact he has with anyone or
anything dirty or smelly he has to clean himself to get rid of the germs. At
the same time I think that there is a religious element to it as well and that
he needs to wash away the sins of the convicts and others to keep a clean soul.
I also discovered that the relationship between Collins, my
character, and Philips is a strong one as they are both very high status and
within the play they both support the idea of the play to help the convicts and
to save Liz. I feel like this support within each other creates a strong,
through professional relationship of which there is mutual respect. As a result
of the development in this relationship I feel that proximity-wise on stage I
would feel better and more secure closer to Philip on stage. Also I feel that my
physicality would be more open to him than others and we would have a physical
communicate to each other on stage.
Lastly I found out the reality of my status within the camp.
During the exercise I found myself taking a stroll around the prisoners and checking
that everything was okay however when I did this I realised that because of my
status I wouldn’t really be mingling with the convicts and that was more of a
guards job and I would me a lot more in the admin, running of the place. I
thought that this would really affect how I would act if I had to come across
any of the convicts and that I might be a bit awkward in dealing with them as I
haven’t had much communication or interaction with them. On top of this I think
that my character would be slightly intimidated by the convicts because
although socially he is of a higher status, I think their “brutality”,
confidence and “sin” would make him feel a bit weaker.